Love Time of _'s love like fog rain and also wind

Love Time of _'s love like fog,rain and also wind

She lives for 4 years, makes her full of hesitating to this love in boyfriend's reliance
Pearl pieces of kindhearted girl very, she pass 20 just, to the intersection of contacts and unable automatic control between the men and women. What she faces now is the biggest and puzzleddest: "Love I, play man that I have a problematic future to one also, what shall I do? " Whether say good-bye, or go on, make pearl repeated, full of contradictions. This makes me remember that popular song out of date. In fact, the boyfriend loves her for being just a layer of fog; Raindrop hitting her but looking like right in the face; And his future, his reliance to her, like a stream of wind that is crossed in her hand, it is the thing that she can't hold most.
The pearl is a girl in Hunan, a factory of what is the school recommented to Shenzhen in April of 2000 goes to work, one building materials market does sale now. Her first love is that grade three began in the special secondary school, she and that boy especially have chance with, arranging the seat either front and back seat each time is the adjacent seat. That is the most happy day most carefree, a round evening month shortly before graduating in the life, they and several classmate go back dormitory play crazy, wipe out prohibit fruit secretly outside. After the job assignment on graduation, like birds flying in different directions, two people do not have good-bye one.
Begin very accidental with small gold, he the intersection of she and classmate too, study in special secondary school grade it transfers class to four month to be better to train the class, and then supported by family, have opened a men's clothing in the native place
The shop, the business is not very good, there is not a friend at home, classmates have gone to Shenzhen or Guangzhou to work as a temporary labourer, wonder where he has known her QQ number from, two people are having a chat on the net, the relation stands up closely. Pearl trust he very much, until thing of boyfriend tell him whether including two people take thing to prohibit the fruit secretly that evening with before, this is a hang-up in mind of hers, a burden and regretting in her social idea. He reacted greatly at that time, people disappeared quickly. But reached the next day, he appeared on the net, said: "Whom I liked is you who are present, as we did not know in the past, nothing did not know either. " In this way they begin. In June of 2001, he came to Shenzhen, she just quited one's job because of being unhappy, his arrival was a medicine conciliated, in this way the pearl accepts small gold, and let him live in one's own residence.
But the pearl has not expected, it is not high because small gold has no specialty, education, it is very difficult to find an ideal job in Shenzhen. It is supercilious to combine with his natural disposition, the bad work did not want to do, so did not find a formal job by this year, having done to several workers in although the middle, it is about hopeless to all have one month only. Because without incomes, all daily living expenses want that meagre salary by the pearl to support, as time goes by, the pearl feels a little tired.
The beginning of this year, small gold say, want, go, learn, drive, pearl give 2000 of him come back home to study. He gets back to to look for a job deeply again two months later, but can not find. Then small gold say, take, go, learn from his brother-in-law, build air conditioner again, pearl promise too, also give him a living cost on time every month, to July like this. After some friends of the pearl know, advise her to give up this emotion as soon as possible. The friend says: "Earning money alone on you, both households count on you, you will be more tired after getting married! " They ask the pearl: "More than three years together for you, do you know how much he has taken at your place? Has he said return? Although he is very kind to you, all kinds of things are arranging you, but he relies on you at the same time, he seems to have no way in anything. Where a man has not worked for three years, do not have economic source not to worry about at all either! "
Once question that pearl think never put forward friend, become one worry of her right away. She thinks the friend's words reasonable, but it is very difficult to put down this emotion. July one day, small gold phone, come over, say, take driving license, lack of 2000 still, let her help him try every possible means. She grit one's teeth, give younger sister pay 2000 of tuition, give he planning, want him must raise, come back, give to the younger sister in will it be the end August. Reach him to push away September, say oneself does not have, has not got no. Phone he say at once at once, when when have, push away one day one day each time, not according to promising to take back yet till now. Younger sister of pearl educate in the university, 2000 these father let whom the intersection of uncle and house lend. The pearl thinks now very unfair to them.
Pearl calculate, give 7000 of him already this year, give oneself family 3000, then she feel guilty very much, think parents work hard, drag her so large, face carry towards world working towards loess every day, enjoy anything never, but oneself spend money on, know how on the people that cherish by one, so determine to say good-bye to him. As soon as he hears that says good-bye, urgent soon, will rush to come over from Qingyuan that works as a temporary labourer, will want the pearl to give him a chance. Later, he saw pearl and former boyfriend and chatted on the net, thought it was basic reasons that she wanted to say good-bye that their former affection recured, then raise a hand to hit her. Pearl say he sell very heavy while being every, it sends to be 15 minute more whole.
After calming down, small gold begins to coax her again, the pearl is very apt to be soft-hearted too, and it think too on oneself mistaken,oneself should and associate former boyfriend again, she forgives him for hitting her, but she does not apologize. The next day, he still wanted her to apologize, and required her to phone, the boyfriend cut off relation closer. She says: "It is all right for me to phone, it is all right to break off coming and going with him, but why I should apologize, there are yous too on I and he chat,which words, which indicate a word whether there are wes? We chat as the ordinary friend, not as serious as what you think of, he is this period of time the will is more downhearted, just look for me to have a chat " Small gold is said after hearing: " How you still think of, the dedicating to him for the first time of you, do you also want to help him now? " Saying, he had touched it again. At overline bridge this time, until the end, the pearl can not stand his playing and the passerby surrounds and watches, have said one sentence " I am sorry " He stops hands.
This experience lets the heart of the pearl be colder. Though he feels guilty very much, and guarantee constantly that will not hit her, and write the warranty after being calm, but the pearl has a lingering fear now. "I beat if see his eyes stare at my heart, I'm afraid he will hit the person, but he is unwilling to say good-bye. His work in Qingyuan now, the salary costs 800 yuan to wrap up, do for two months, but he said again when telephone is available a few days ago that wanted to quit one's job. I say in any case, you should celebrate the New Year. He has promised, do we just want to break like this
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