A woman's newly-married experience

A woman's newly-married experience
I, unfortunately, at the teenager, because family house very much little, parents and I sleep in a room. That year of 15 years old, I fell asleep one evening, woken by the moaning loudly of mother suddenly, anything that my father is breathing to chatter nearby. I frighten terribly, thumping beat on the heart, but can't help stealthily watch, until those undisguised scene scare stiff at the moment I, I wonder what parents are doing? I understand, think this one crime, swarm to father even abhor sense to the intersection of man and one wonder until where come on from then on suddenly, do not think men are all good things. At the age of 17, I study in the high school, there will be once physical education after class, the PE teacher will stop me, let me get in the school gymnasium. The PE teacher has stalwart body, have physical education and always like revealing his talent in front of me each time, the guidance of me is very patient too. I thought nothing at that time, came to the empty gymnasium, he wanted me to bend over to stand with the railing in that, he bends over on me, the hip supports my buttock tightly. Suddenly I remembered Papa and Mama that time, was similar to this posture too. I understand, struggled desperately, escaped at last. Remember the scene each time for a long time, I want, vomit, sick, first see stalwart man, will produce the fear different to inhibit. I always warn oneself not to think! Don't think of! Forget! Forget! (The expert comments: The result of attempting to desalinize the wound is very difficult, are strengthening consciously or unconsciously sometimes, make the thing poorer; There is not this kind of situation to study normally, this has direct influence with the psychological wound. Just as learnt to swim as a child alone to be almost drowned, the more people revealed the fun of swimming to him from then on, the deeper his disgust to it is. If the accident in early years has not happened, there is no influence of this kind of wound) . I have got married. I am afraid one's own husband, even he, to movement and sight that I do everything to please, I feel the rudeness like animal desire. First night getting married. The guests have all left, I sit in front of the desk alone, the husband has already gone to bed. I afraid very much, I want, sleep, fear around man very much on the heart, I remember those evening in parents, having remembered that experience of the gymnasium, I am afraid very much, I want to go home, I think of more scenes trying to escape reality! However, this is impossible after all, I know that must fulfil wife's obligations, can't destroy the beautiful moment of this newly-married first night. I have gone to bed, but only take off the coat, wear the underwear pants. He gathered over suddenly, my thumping beat directly, one suits of goose pimples arose. He has pressed close to my face, somehow, I am sick for a moment, nearly disgusting. I do one's utmost to be strong to bear, however, as at a disturbance of gastritising, can not press really, violent I really vomit. He asks me what is the matter, it is too tired that I am flurried to call it busy for one day, uncomfortable in the stomach, want to be disgusting. That night, so long as he was close to me, I vomited without end. He see to feel a pain kind I, bear better every trade room, I have held out through this newly-married first night at long last. (The expert comments: The sex disgust is that some people abhor and react one kind of the sexual behavior or sexual intercourse thought, men and women can all have illness coming on, is many with women. This disease is often situation, may present in particular time place and environment. This kind of morbid state is abhored and reacted, display sweating all over the body, disgusting, vomit, diarrhoea or palpitation; And another some people may have, detest, feel, have above-mentioned obvious response. Generally speaking, sex disgust show as to be cold repelling to whom opposite sex keep in touch often, have orgasm during sexual intercourse, or feel cold, frightened and abhoring while being reactionless instead, take the resistance of different ways. Person who produce disgust relate to questions such as the development in adolescence,etc. often, such as because physique very bad or self-confidence enough, etc adolescence perhaps. There is wound history of sexual behaviors in childhood or adolescence in another reason, formed " the wound is studied " Experience,it is link up not to and insult by pain sex, impelling appear the disgusts. Because the wound of this kind of body and mind has cast a kind of stereotype, thus produce resentment to the normal sexual life) . I thought, he will not drop easily, must ask wedding by compulsory means. I make a decision to cater to him too, try not to resist, because I am his wife, the wife should fulfil wife's obligations. But night, though whom he toss about sleep, it can be still consideration and understanding very much to me, not moving close to me again either all the time, touch me again, this makes me produce a kind of compunction sense from the deep of the heart, think unfair to him, unworthy of making the wife, fail to meet his requirement. The next day, though made him disappointed at newly-married night, he did not not only blame me, attentive to the utmost to me instead. I make a decision secretly, must make the husband satisfied in the second night. With the coming of night, my sense of fear seems to follow too, parents' image, a scene of the gymnasium swarms my mind again, I make great efforts to get rid of the distracing thought, cater to him with very great courage. Certainly the husband is very glad, I have found out his aspiration and happiness from his expression in one's eyes, certainly the mood is very excited, he is too impatient to embrace me in his chest, the thumping at the beginning of my heart beats arbitrarily at this moment, it seems that the heart will jumped from my mouth out soon, felt sick again suddenly, but I did one's utmost to resist. What I can not attend to him either. A burst of sharp pain, I cry, all over It is a sweat, the body is unable, nearly lose consciousness. He is frightened terribly, kneels in front of me, at a loss, constantly stroke, wipe the sweat, comfort, I, am I thinking closing eyes, will the women all go through such pain? Are the women all over the world all the same? (The expert comments: Women's first sexual intercourse, usually want slight pain and bleeding phenomenon to take place, this a hymen breaks to cause. The hymen hides a circle of membrane of the mouth outside woman's vagina, the positive and negative of the membrane is pink, the surface is wet. Unless usually, getting less and more thick relatively in hymen when it is ripe non-,with after to breed is ripe to friend,it is large to become thin for hymen to become, the adult's hymen is probably thick 1- 2 millimetres. There are a diameter 1- 1.5 centimetres, hole with different shapes, the hymen hole called in the middle of the hymen. Hymen and the intersection of hymen and hole and wall stick to closely in front of the vagina often, can prevent external world from clean dirt enter the vagina, the internal genitals can play certain protective action. At the time of first sexual intercourse, the penis can make the hymen break to insert in, bring pain and bleed. There is few general bleeding amount, only adhere to the pants or sheet little by little, usually can arrest blood in 1- 2 days. Unless certainly, it have either bleed at all, either a large amount of bleeding,it even bleed for 10 days in succession not only example, this kind of situation may be that even vaginal wall break. It Time, can also vary with each individual following pain that bleeds and brings, especially in addition" the wound is studied " The experience, Even more
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